What grief sounds like for me

I didn’t expect this to affect me the way it did.

I took my words…
my thoughts…
my grief…

and turned it into a song.

At first, it felt like just another way to express what I’ve been carrying.

Something creative.
Something different.

But then I listened to it.

And it broke me.

Hearing my own story…
in someone else’s voice…

with music behind it…

made everything feel real in a different way.

It’s one thing to feel something.

It’s another thing to hear it.

There’s no distraction.

No way to push it aside.

Just the truth.

The words I’ve been thinking…
but haven’t always been able to say out loud.

The parts of this journey
that don’t always make it into conversations.

The quiet thoughts.
The heavy moments.
The things that sit with you when the world goes still.

That’s what this song captured.

Not strength.

Not healing.

Not “moving on.”

Just…

where I am.

Right now.

Grieving.

Trying to show up for my girls.

Trying to keep going.

Trying to breathe through the days that feel impossible.

This is what grief sounds like for me.

It’s soft…
but heavy.

It’s quiet…
but loud at the same time.

It’s love…
and loss…
and everything in between.

I don’t know if I’m doing this right.

But I’m still here.

Still mom. 🤍

🎧 Listen to the song:

👉 https://suno.com/s/9snQ7pRO29FrJLxy


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3 responses to “What grief sounds like for me”

  1. Avoeria Avatar

    Hi there,

    I came across your writing and wanted to reach out personally. I can’t even begin to imagine what you’re currently going through, what you shared about losing your husband took courage to put into words, and I just want you to know it didn’t go unnoticed.

    I just want to ask directly, are you in therapy at the moment? If not, and if you’re in South Africa, I can point you towards someone good. No obligation, just a genuine offer.

    I’m wishing you the best

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    1. stillherestillmom Avatar

      Hi there,

      Thank you so much for your kind message and for taking the time to reach out.

      Yes, I am currently in counselling and have been since shortly after losing my husband. It has become an important part of my healing journey and has helped me navigate some of the overwhelming emotions that come with grief.

      I won’t pretend that therapy takes the pain away, but it has given me a safe space to process everything and take things one day at a time.

      Your offer means more than you know, and I truly appreciate the kindness and compassion behind it. Thank you for thinking of me and for your encouragement.

      Wishing you all the best as well. 🤍

      Natalie

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  2. Avoeria Avatar

    I’m glad to hear that you have a safe space in your journey. You also mean more to me than you know, you have been in my mind and I’m rooting for you 🤍

    Hazel

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